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Post by Jude on Mar 20, 2009 14:10:28 GMT -5
i keep thinking i want food but it hurts to eat I just read this "I keep thinking foot looks good to eat" lool
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Post by Jude on Mar 20, 2009 17:46:29 GMT -5
How fucking cosmic.
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Post by Jude on Mar 20, 2009 19:00:23 GMT -5
I just read "A Better Future" as "A Beer Future"
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Post by Jude on Mar 20, 2009 20:16:05 GMT -5
I guess a lot of people are looking and searching all the time and I guess a lot of them prolly think it was right there and got snatched away from them, too. Sure seems easy to blame it on time or something. Or other people. But really, I don't know what else to do. I feel trapped. Closed in kind of relying just on the past. There's gotta be something up ahead, or what am I here for? And here I am throwing my words around like little spider webs hoping somebody'll go 'Hey, what's this?' and grab hold of it, but it doesn't seem to be happening. Maybe I'm not throwing them far enough, or in enough places. Maybe they won't look til they see something brand new. Maybe all this spontaneous bullshit is old and worn, to them. But the way I see it, everything's right there in our minds anyway. We can be ANYTHING. Things'll be born of being. I wanna be new and spontaneous... crawl right out of all these restrictions and just BE. Just fucking be. If anybody actually knew how frustrated I get... if a single person here knew me at all... that's kinda the way of it. Nobody here knows me at all. I guess I didn't put a lot of effort in cause I figure no one cares. They have stuff like war and whatever else it is on their minds. Respecting the flag and doing what it is their god wants 'em to do. I guess that's their thing and I don't have any place being all cross about it. But I have this thing where I don't wanna let them see me. It's like not cleaning when someone else is around. It's an extension of that fear that somebody'll come up and say YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG just cause they can. At least, it could be. How's it gonna hurt me? I just feel like if I share with them I'll expect them to care and if I expect them to care they won't. I don't even really know what I want.
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Post by Jude on Mar 21, 2009 8:51:04 GMT -5
Does anybody actually read any of this stuff I write? I realized that I bumped all the stuff I said about how sad I was on the other thread to the page before ... prolly just as well...
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Post by Barn Owl on Mar 21, 2009 9:02:46 GMT -5
I read it Jude! But I always feel like if I reply it's gonna sound really really stupid in comparison to what you wrote, because you always write such awesome things =(
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Post by Jude on Mar 21, 2009 9:15:17 GMT -5
You're so sweet <3 I don't think you ever sound stupid.
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Post by Barn Owl on Mar 21, 2009 9:16:11 GMT -5
Aw, thanks =D I think I sound stupid a lot xD
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Post by Jude on Mar 21, 2009 9:21:33 GMT -5
But like... I want people to feel free to say anything. It's ok to sound stupid... I mean... look at that rubbish I wrote in the spontaneous writing thread XD
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Post by Jude on Mar 21, 2009 10:19:10 GMT -5
Ah it hurts so much to touch my throat. It's kind of... interesting.
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Post by tempo on Mar 21, 2009 10:47:11 GMT -5
I guess a lot of people are looking and searching all the time and I guess a lot of them prolly think it was right there and got snatched away from them, too. Sure seems easy to blame it on time or something. Or other people. But really, I don't know what else to do. I feel trapped. Closed in kind of relying just on the past. There's gotta be something up ahead, or what am I here for? And here I am throwing my words around like little spider webs hoping somebody'll go 'Hey, what's this?' and grab hold of it, but it doesn't seem to be happening. Maybe I'm not throwing them far enough, or in enough places. Maybe they won't look til they see something brand new. Maybe all this spontaneous bullshit is old and worn, to them. But the way I see it, everything's right there in our minds anyway. We can be ANYTHING. Things'll be born of being. I wanna be new and spontaneous... crawl right out of all these restrictions and just BE. Just fucking be. If anybody actually knew how frustrated I get... if a single person here knew me at all... that's kinda the way of it. Nobody here knows me at all. I guess I didn't put a lot of effort in cause I figure no one cares. They have stuff like war and whatever else it is on their minds. Respecting the flag and doing what it is their god wants 'em to do. I guess that's their thing and I don't have any place being all cross about it. But I have this thing where I don't wanna let them see me. It's like not cleaning when someone else is around. It's an extension of that fear that somebody'll come up and say YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG just cause they can. At least, it could be. How's it gonna hurt me? I just feel like if I share with them I'll expect them to care and if I expect them to care they won't. I don't even really know what I want. Jude, man. Get out. Literally.
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Post by Jude on Mar 21, 2009 10:53:20 GMT -5
Good call ^^ I'm on it.
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Post by PurpleGrape on Mar 21, 2009 12:11:52 GMT -5
I always read the things you write. You're probably one of the only person I know ('cept I really don't, lol) who says things that have some kind of meaning to them. I think your words are very important *nods*
I need to clean my room. I don't want to though. I guess I don't really need to either. and it's not that I should. and saying I ought to is the same thing. Maybe I just won't.
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Post by glittercity on Mar 21, 2009 13:21:53 GMT -5
Bloody Brilliant *high five!*
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Post by Jude on Mar 21, 2009 15:11:42 GMT -5
lol glad you like it XD
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