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Mar 28, 2009 20:07:56 GMT -5
Post by Opheliac on Mar 28, 2009 20:07:56 GMT -5
wow that really suxx. :[ i'm glad that my mommy isn't that way.
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Mar 28, 2009 21:16:14 GMT -5
Post by Jude on Mar 28, 2009 21:16:14 GMT -5
yeah, the drug dealer has a grand daughter the same age as my sister and they're like best friends. hmm, thats actually hard to answer. i guess, yeah, well, no.... You see, the way I was brought up you ignore all the bad things that happen and act as though everything is alright all the time. though as I get older I realized thats bull shit and i don't wanna do it. but being that it's been embeded into my brain since forever it's kinda hard to shake. Does that make sense? That doesn't really answer your question though, does it? I call her my mom because to tell you the truth theres still a part of me that's terrified of her as I was as a child. I know if I were to type the words 'she is not my mom' here that nothing would happen to me because she'll never see it, but I'm absolutely paranoid that she knows everything I think and that she'll hit me. meaning that I pretty much don't count what I just typed as anything. In my head, it didn't really happen. Don't get me wrong, she didn't abuse me, not exactly, not physically, but she's damn close with my sister. and you see, she hits to teach her kinds and since I was very little i've been afraid of that. She never hit me that much but I remember listening to my sister scream when I was younger and I guess I'm afraid of that happening to me. She's always mentally abused me and still does. I fight back but only until I get that fear inside that makes me stop. And I was brought up to respect and be nice to my parents though I don't with my mom, but theres a line I can't make myself cross. that still doesn't answer you does it. I guess i'm not sure, but I won't say no...... hun, if you're making a little kid scream you're hitting them so much, you're abusing them. it pisses me the fuck off when someone hits a kid at all. like bad. this is where we get to MY issues. yay! i just imagined hitting your mother with an axe.
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Mar 28, 2009 21:48:32 GMT -5
Post by PurpleGrape on Mar 28, 2009 21:48:32 GMT -5
^^ thats cute I know, but like I said, we all live in denial....
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Mar 28, 2009 21:49:38 GMT -5
Post by vanives on Mar 28, 2009 21:49:38 GMT -5
I had pretty violent thoughts too jude. But thats because, besides the hitting, parents who take their kids with them to the DRUG DEALER piss me off....good way for your kids to do what you do now. Its not a coincidence that people who do drugs have kids who do drugs when they've expose their kids to it.
Hopefully, in my opinion, pg and their sis avoid drugs to not be like their mom in at least one way. that's what I did anyway. To not be like my bio father who abused me and my mom and brother.
I've found alot of people who are abusive to others also do drugs. And obviously, I am not talking pot. Although that in excess to the point of abandoning family has happened before...
NONE of this is simple, isn't it? Its all complicated...I just hope everyone gets through it and emerges on the other side healthy and happy.
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Mar 28, 2009 21:52:50 GMT -5
Post by sparrow on Mar 28, 2009 21:52:50 GMT -5
Well like, my mom hit me hard enough to make me scream but I don't think she was really abusing me, it was like discipline. And I was just a screamer
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Mar 28, 2009 21:54:14 GMT -5
Post by vanives on Mar 28, 2009 21:54:14 GMT -5
Uhm I was disciplined. For whatever it was at the time and no one made me SCREAM.
well...I do think life has a way of being....like people get their paybacks.
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Mar 28, 2009 21:55:34 GMT -5
Post by sparrow on Mar 28, 2009 21:55:34 GMT -5
er I wasn't saying you weren't, I wasn't replying to you
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Mar 28, 2009 21:56:34 GMT -5
Post by vanives on Mar 28, 2009 21:56:34 GMT -5
Oh am sorry :\
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Mar 28, 2009 21:57:13 GMT -5
Post by Jude on Mar 28, 2009 21:57:13 GMT -5
hitting kids disgusts me. hugely. like ................... GAH!!!!!!! omg. but i wouldn't really hit someone with an axe... i hope. maybe a stick *hmm*
i love how they make up fancy words for abuse to brainwash people into thinking it's awesome
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Mar 28, 2009 22:00:14 GMT -5
Post by PurpleGrape on Mar 28, 2009 22:00:14 GMT -5
vani: i don't think my sister knows that my mom does drugs. shes pretty niave about everything and we're kinda trying to hide her from it a bit.
sparrow: no, my mom was definitely waaaay over the top. i used to cout how may times she would 'whip' her and I got to 43 once before I was crying too much to keep going. I used to hide in the far corner of my garage and cover my ears and hum in attempt to drown her out. It didn't work. so yeah, emotional and mental damage.
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Mar 28, 2009 22:01:49 GMT -5
Post by Jude on Mar 28, 2009 22:01:49 GMT -5
um... i changed my mind. definitely axe. maybe a mace...
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Mar 28, 2009 22:11:08 GMT -5
Post by PurpleGrape on Mar 28, 2009 22:11:08 GMT -5
^^ ny neighbour has a machette
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Mar 28, 2009 22:13:04 GMT -5
Post by Jude on Mar 28, 2009 22:13:04 GMT -5
lol oh man. i don't think i'd really hurt anyone. maybe just do what minimally was necessary to save the child :/ maybe i could carry a tranquilizer...
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Mar 28, 2009 22:16:26 GMT -5
Post by sparrow on Mar 28, 2009 22:16:26 GMT -5
tsparrow: no, my mom was definitely waaaay over the top. i used to cout how may times she would 'whip' her and I got to 43 once before I was crying too much to keep going. I used to hide in the far corner of my garage and cover my ears and hum in attempt to drown her out. It didn't work. so yeah, emotional and mental damage. Oh, I didn't mean to say she didn't, I was just sharing my personal experiences. That sounds really terrible.
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Mar 28, 2009 22:22:11 GMT -5
Post by PurpleGrape on Mar 28, 2009 22:22:11 GMT -5
tranquilizer sounds good. i think it could be affective.
it was, she doesn't do it much any more. now she bickers with my sister like a child. Which i told her earlier so she claimed I had an attitude and threatened to ban me from my friends -_-
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